Bead of water

So I was in the process of realizing something recently. I'm really bad at holding conversations. Especially with new people. Reminds me of someone; namely a fictional character, but meh. So I decided that I wanted to do something about. Problem is I really don't fully know how.

Realized something else as well. I hate feeling vunerable. Stupid little things like the admission above make me feel like that. Which I believes contributes to a lack of conversation. I'm *this* close to taking that down. Gah...

Anyway, today was part one of two of a dog aggression seminar that me and Milly (I know it should be Milly and I, but really? it's a blog) are signed up for.

Today we did nothing that I didn't already know. Mostly we did alot of work with sideholds. A sidehold, is very much like it sounds like, you get your dog to lie down, flip them on their side and pin them there. Do not try that at home, without someone to show you how it's properly done, or fully explain the reasons why you might choose to do this. I'll tell you right now, never, EVER do that as a punishment. Sideholds require a great deal of trust, and using that as a punishment is like emotionally whipping your dog. Not something done in a productive relationship.

It took Milly a full 45 minutes to an hour to settle down. While in a sidehold. That kills legs I might add. When I was first teaching her to trust me while being pinned she headbutted me so hard she made me bite through my lip. That hurt. Alot.

Anyways, after the instructor did her speel (which is similar to Darcie's, just said different, with more emphasis on different things really) I came to a conclusion. I'm probably going to be amazing with dogs if I keep working at it. I don't think I'll ever be able to apply what I've learned with dogs to children. They're actually quiet similar.

I'm going to eat supper now. Drop me a line, and after exams we should get together.